sheRicA and Dj`Lei.. we belong together =) -

Wednesday, May 02, 2012

Just read through the posts for year 2010, things seem sweet enough to me, but I guess It wasn't for you... I was stupid; I was idiotic; Just wish I could have see things more clearly then and not give birth to Ash. The blog says 'Our Love Story: sheRicA and Dj`Lei We belong together' ...... do we? Really? Stayed up last night crying from 530am till 630am; didn't dare to lie down in case I wake u up again and we would quarrel again. I think crying before sleep is almost a daily affair, I totally hate the time before sleeping because it's so quiet, there's no end to misery. I remember the way I would talk about you, would talk about us when I'm blogging, I remember I was happy the past 2 years; I just didn't realize that you weren't. And when she said u told her there's no feelings between us; I think I already give up, I was always one to walk away, trying for a failed relationship doesn't come easy to me. What did I do wrong to deserve your cruelty? I didn't. And I don't even feel that I could ever love you like before. Everything we're doing together, or every sweet thing that was said, u destroyed it by negating them. The past 2 years was just nothing to u. I wasted my time cooping myself up, just to be with you, just to reassure you; did everything I could and it all came to naught, the day u were interested in her. 2 years of stupidity, following you for training every other night, and all for what? LOVE? And to think, you didn't even feel that you love me much. There's too many things u didn't realize about us, about me giving so much to you, I hope you can find someone else who would and who could be with you, exactly the way u want it to be, because I can't .... can't be your superwoman... totally hurt.....

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