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Thursday, February 01, 2007

once again.. i lost my soul.. lost my hopes..and suddenly this world has just turned dull for me.. life without you..is so hard... i dont feel the courage anymore.. i cant feel the support i used to have from u.. all the promises that were made...... were never fulfilled... why has things to become liddat..what isit that i had done wrong? what had i done to deserve this...i donno...i had never felt this down..this bad...the pain..the hurt..are too much for me. save me ..please... i really...cant do without u...i know u meant too much to me already... u are all that i ever wanted all that i ever need..losing u is as good as ending my life.. wei she me... wo zhen de bu ming bai.. wei she me yi qie hui lun luo dao zhe ge di bu.. last time..no matter what..u will always try to protect my feelings.. yes i am tough on the outside but deep in me i am very weak.. remember what i always told u last time? please handle my heart with care...i can no longer take anymore heartbreaks.. u are the one who made me believe in love.. and the only one i have ever been so nice and true to.. yet...... u are the one who is gonna break it.......... i know ur circle of family and frens are impt to u.. but cant u even give me the chance to try and blend in? why are u giving me up so easily... no i dont need u to feel guilty coz u are not doing a wrong thing, love is never fair and is always selfish.. but nan dao u are really so jue .. not gonna care for me anymore?.. u said the 4mths did meant something to u.. if so..y .. y cant we just keep going..its not like theres no future to it. i can see it, just that u are blinded by ur own thinkings..

i have never felt hurt and heart pain like this..its even worse than that day ...30th dec..where i discovered all the hurting truth.. but at least that day.. i can still feel ur love..ur care and concern.. but today..it just feels so cold........... hai...

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