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Thursday, January 11, 2007

My nieces have left for China...... the sense of losss is queer. Strikes when u least notice it. The giggles and whining... kinda of miss them now. Yeay... they'll be back for CNY soon though. Talking abt loss...... I think I lost alot in all my insignificant years of existence. In 2006, my two greater loss..... was Team CaLz and my grandma. Both of which... you would probably know if you are just abit closer to me.

My greatest comfort... would be that of a new team, CCC^-^ otherwise known as PCC or TOF before that. And I'm so blessed... or cursed... to have l3i and dk in my lives guiding and helping me. Jlo is nice, Chan is fun, Stykish is kewl, Dk is weird, I'm temperamental.... n together we're CCC = cheryl chocolate candy =D Oh n in case there's any misconceptions... I didn't think of the name..... they registered it n asked me to 'go see'. LoL... but sadly... my greatest gain... is gonna be a loss soon.. as Dk wants to chu stunt and leaves the team. heh... that's life isn't it ? But I'm just gonna be glad.... that we won week1 capl open.... n is going on the semis n finals...... =)

Regarding love..... "What do you want exactly?" One of the most common qns posted to me... I want nothing now. A relationship does not suit me... I want freedom.. and room for breathing. I want to do whatever I feel like without constrains and limitations.... I want to indulge in my mood swings... and roam free n wild like the wind. I want to be able to walk my path in life, to smile cry n shout out loud. I want to see people get their retribution while I await my own. I want to know what I can achieve and set goals and aims for myself. At the end...... after all these..... I want someone to hug me from behind.. n tell me that everything is gonna be just all right.. I belong to no one.... n I won't be any for the keeping. The only person to lay claim on me in the whole wide world n all my years of living.... My Mum.

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